8/1/05

CT Scan
Today was a particularly trying day. Miles had a CT scan of his ear. I prayed that he would be able to hold still for the few minutes it takes, but I was kidding myself. What 3 year old could? So, he had to be sedated, and it was just awful, because I had to hold him on my lap while they gave him the gas. Holding your kid down, while he struggles in a panic until he passes out, is not something a parent should ever have to do. I cried some afterwards, but did a pretty good job of keeping myself together. I felt like screaming and wailing.
We had to leave and sit in a waiting room. The procedure supposedly only took a few minutes, but it seemed like we waited forever. I started imagining the worst, of course. But it went fine. We let him wake up slowly on his own, afterwards, and he was perfectly fine. Didn't seem to affect him at all! What a little trooper. Now we don't get to find out the results until our doctor appointment on August 16. Argh!
I'm running on no sleep. I was so stressed last night, that I woke up numerous times, and when I did sleep I had horrible nightmares about Miles being in trouble, my grandmother dying, etc.